Day 251 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/ Manic Monday – There is always something to be grateful for.

This morning began early with a text, a phone call, and a Facebook PM. I didn’t get to sleep until after 2 so I wasn’t expecting to rise early today. No worries. It meant I could get going on my long list of things I wanted to accomplish.  I dressed in my painting clothes and headed out front. Much to my chagrin, it was raining. I guess I was so tired I didn’t even hear it last night.

Change of plans: I went back to my bookcase to continue on the chore I started earlier. I rearranged things in the dining room as well as the living room. It felt so good to change things up. Very little needed to be trashed. After too many hours, I had nine bags of books to donate to charity. One box to go to my niece and two for my cousin were also prepped. Then I made stacks of items from my gift cabinet that need to be mailed. I trashed more junk mail and made piles of items that need further inspection. I dusted and cleaned my bookcase shelves.

 Throughout all the purging and cleaning, I couldn’t help thinking that as my meditations are bringing mental clarity, my purging is bringing physical clarity. As I touched certain items, I thanked them for their usefulness. Others I bid farewell because they never brought me happiness. Two more bags were filled with various items found in my living areas. It felt like I was on the lookout for things to get rid of. I guess I was. I am working to move forward into less clutter. 

Two rooms took me most of the day to finish. I washed the floors and needed to sit down before I fell down. I was able to go through more paperwork and bills. I actually felt joyful having my rooms clean. I collapsed on the couch and had a wonderful three and a half hour phone conversation with my cousin. I felt no guilt for the foray into relaxation. 

I took a break and went outside to toss the ball to my dog. I rearranged a few wind chimes for better acoustics. I admired all my butterfly decorations. I now have a large butterfly on my back fence, three solar light butterflies in my sago palm pot, a hanging solar butterfly in my Eiffel Tower, and my purple butterfly wind chime. Being in my garden always brings me joy. 

I decided to start the kitchen cabinets. I was only able to do three upper shelves before I realized I was too beat to continue. My feet were screaming at me to stop. Sitting on my bed I was able to sort through a stack of books that have priority once I get more work done. I looked at the three piles of laundry that need to be folded and decided to call it quits for the night. I am trying to take advantage of these good days before they disappear. I have no idea when I wake up what shape my body will be in. I am grateful my house is feeling more joyful to me.

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Day 250 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/Not my holiday

It’s past midnight and sleep is alluding me so why not do my Sunday blog. My meditation has been on a freight train traveling one direction. For days now I have been pondering the effects of the lack of a good male father figure in my life. Saturday morning’s meditation was predominately spent crying for and with the little girl who never had a daddy to love her. This day, Sunday, is not my day. After meditating I tried to come up with something I could do to reclaim the day. I have not come up with a happy plan. Maybe sleeping on it will help.       

After meditating I decided I needed to put away 5 items to help with my clutter cleaning objective. I thought 5 might be too many, but once I started I reached 10 things quickly. In an attempt to make sure I did something  fun for myself I went to a thrift store. I needed one season of a specific series and it was there. I was so excited . I also purchased a bag of broken watches to add to my retirement bowling ball stash. While on my way to leave I came across an outdoor butterfly decoration. I felt it was a divinely inspired morning.     

I went to home depot before returning home. I bought some Bondo. I have never used the product before.  My handyman showed me how it works and I was eager to try my hand with it. The handyman installed a new pillar and I need to repair and repaint the other three. In addition to clutter clearing the next two weeks I am also trying to get some projects done.

In the afternoon I used the Bondo with fairly good success. Some spots were amazingly smooth and some were just OK. I ended up using the entire container as I kept finding more things that needed repairing. Later today I will sand again and get to painting my porch.

I finally attacked the neighbor’s hedge that is intruding on my yard. I filled one trash can and left the rest of the branches in a pile. I will finish after I bring the second can out front. I like the way the hedge looks when it is trimmed neatly. My preference would be for it to disappear but that s not in my control.   

After making a yummy dinner I started to attack the paperwork on my dining room table. I had convinced myself it was an hour job at most. I was soooooo wrong. After filling one inside recycle trash can and one regular trash can I had made huge progress. It was almost midnight and I decided I had accomplished more than I thought was possible.   

While clutter clearing all day I had many clarifying thoughts about male figures in my life. I have had many difficult experiences.  I sought to find something good.

  1. To bio dad- Thank you for giving me life. Thank you for having wonderful parents who I adored. 
  2. To T (My first step-father) – Thank you for giving me fond memories of days at the beach and pizza outings and outdoor movie nights. 
  3. To Mr. B (My 6th grade teacher) Thank you for reading to our class every day. It was the first time I had ever had a man read to me. Thank you for coming to the house with cards from my classmates when I returned from the hospital after two months. Thank you for being there for all your students. Thank you for making sure I did not have to repeat the sixth grade.
  4. To Mr T (My speech and debate teacher) Thank you for seeing something in me I did not see. Thank you for your advice and guidance that allowed me to graduate from school early instead of dropping out. I have long since forgiven you for putting me in competitions that scared the heck out of me. Thank you for that.
  5. To W (Step dad number 7) Thank you for making my mother happy and treating her well. Thank you for being a loving grandpa to my children. Thank you for accepting the craziness that is our family. Thank you for seeing the truth when my mother did not. 
  6. To Dr.E – Thank you for guiding me on the difficult path last year. I would not had made this wonderful growth without your expertise. 

When I awake and the rest of the US is celebrating Father’s Day I once again will not participate. It is not a holiday for me. After completing some of my tasks, perhaps I will reclaim the day for happiness. It is sure worth a try.

Changed from a poem I read

Fathers Day is here… And deep inside I’m sad…For Father’s Day reminds me… I’ve never had a dad.

Day 249 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/#SoCS – Social

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Linda Hill’s stream of consciousness makes my Saturday blog different than my norm.  It means instead of focusing on what repeatedly popped in my head, I need to focus on what popped in my head from her topic. A subtle difference but one I enjoy. 

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “social.” Use it any way you’d like. Have fun!

As is my usual goal I attempt to join my blog topic with her parameters.

I don’t have a history of being social with my peers. I typically have sheltered myself by keeping busy. I would stay in my room and work before school, during my prep period, and during lunch. I have a history of overworking to keep my time filled.  A busy life is one that has little time for things other than my beloved career. 

Social gatherings are difficult for me. I never feel like I fit in. I always feel like the outsider. Even with most people I have known for years, I question my place in the group. Perhaps that makes me appear anti-social. The reality is that I have only opened up to a few people in my life. My circle of friends has always been very very small. Only in this last year, have I reached out and been welcomed by more wonderful women. 

I typically abhor social gatherings where I know no one. Attending a spouse’s work party is typically not fun for me. I am uncomfortable in my own skin. I am very punctual so I arrive early or right on time and then want to leave quickly. While I have been told by some that I seem to be outgoing. That is not my truth. 

 One of my personal goals for retirement is to open myself to new people and new experiences. I am not concerned if my social group is face-to-face or online. While there is more safety in online friendships they are still a way to be social.  I now have some tremendous friendships with people I met on line. I have connected with amazing women who bring warmth, happiness, and comfort into my life. I enjoy interacting with them and would love to meet up in person. Hopefully that will happen in the fall with a couple of them. While it is most likely an impossibility, I would love to convince my far away friend to join us. The internet has changed social interactions forever. In my case it has been a change for the good. I am grateful for the new ways to be social.

If you are interested in joining the social world of Linda’s blog you can visit her site. For all the rules and to read how others interpreted this topic check out her site. There are so many wonderful bloggers who follow the SoCS and I try each week to visit one I haven’t read before.   Go here to see who else joined in. SoCS Pingback

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Day 248 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude -Blog/Mental Decluttering

Today was a lazy day. Instead of popping up and working when I arose I decided to “veg” in bed for awhile. I am grateful that I do not need to  meet any timelines but my own. I continued to watch more of the posts and videos from Denise Linn. She has a group open now until June 30 called The Ultimate Clutter Clearing Challenge. While I am not following it exactly as presented I am trying each day to declutter. 

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Denise Linn was live in The Ultimate Clutter Clearing Challenge.

Some thoughts from her videos that speak to me.

“Why did people sign up for clutter clearing, because you can transform your life with even the smallest amount of clutter clearing…

Clutter clearing has a  little to do with stuff and more to do with your life..

Something you want to release, or heal, or maybe something you want to expand that has been a blockage for a long time. If can be  your place and time to release through intent… 

We as a culture are always too busy….(you believe) You are more valuable if you do more…. It’s not what you do, it’s who you are…Your deepest value is simply being who you are, where you are…

Do not focus on what you didn’t do….

As your home becomes clutter clear it becomes a sacred space…

Every single thing you do small or bigger is a step to propel you on the journey to listen to your soul, to connecting to your heart, to being present in your life…

As you clutter clear your home you should clutter clear your time…

It’s just stuff and it’s leaving…

You do not need to do it all, just do it with intent…

Your clutter clearing can create miracles in your life…

Let this day be a day of miracles…

At every moment you celebrate whatever you get done…

Don’t call it an alter, call it a focus point…

Have a very clear intent on what results you want…

Visualize the results occurring…

I am releasing that which I do not need and I am pulling that which I need…

Clutter is not just stuff… Anything that is keeping you from your joy is clutter…

When you clear out your clutter you are making space for the new. ..“You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep rereading the last chapter”

Only you know what clutter is in your life…

As a result of this challenge you find more space in your heart for joy. for spontaneity, for health, for vitality and for love…

Don’t let anyone else judge your stuff. It is only what it is to you, not anyone else…

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As I absorbed the information I kept wondering why I am still not committing more time to clearing out the clutter.  Instead when I do accomplish something, I berate myself  for it taking too long or for not getting more done.   

 

 

 

 I was eager for my call with Kim tonight. I wanted to discuss the handling of feelings and the way my meditation has been going. I can’t say I am always comfortable with the feelings being dredged up lately. I tell myself I should have a set of feelings on one topic and then I should be done with it. That is not the way it works apparently. She enlightened me with the reality that now that I have more time and less forced activities, my brain is being freed to bring up old hurts. My current struggle is what to do with the feelings. Her wise advice (if I understand correctly) is to not suppress the feelings. I need to sit with the feelings and allow them to surface and be felt. Gee, it sure feels like I am working on decluttering my brain even more than I am my home. I re-watched many of the videos on decluttering again and sure enough, there it was.The videos all explain that feelings and emotions are blocked more than our home. As I allow myself to release my emotions, I hope to release the mental and physical clutter in my life,  I am really grateful to be on this journey, but it is by no means an easy one for me. It is however exciting.

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Day 247 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/ De-cluttering

It seems that every day since I retired I have been dealing with clutter. Clutter in my home, my garage, and in my mind. Some days I deal with things head on. I make a decision to get something done and I just do it. Some days I look at my untidiness and get upset with myself.  I want everything to be done immediately. I realize that is impossible. It is frustrating and the chaos can overwhelm me to the point of  not doing anything. I try to tell myself that I have all the time in the world and nothing has a deadline. The reality is that I function better when I can think and clear the clutter in my surroundings. That makes the clutter in my head easier to deal with.

I set my intention today to clear some of the clutter. Days ago I  signed up for a Facebook Group – The Ultimate Clutter Clearing Challenge. The information has been great. The people are uplifting and supportive. I have been trying to follow the guidelines as they might work for me. I do feel so encouraged when I accomplish tasks. That is just who I am.

Meditation is great for mind clearing. I am good at using my physical decluttering time to reflect and ruminate on what is in my head. I feel like I am currently cleaning with intention. As I work through my chores I am able to  focus on the the benefits of moving forward. It feels good to mull over whatever thought is currently taking residence in my head. 

I am pleased that I am organizing my world.  I want to get everything done at once but I know that is not possible. I look around my home and it can be overwhelming as I list all I should do. I have the remnants of 35 years worth of teaching filling my garage. I have sewing projects from when the oldest grand kids were toddlers. I have WIP (works in progress) in my sewing room that I never had time to finish. I have years worth of pictures that need to be scrapbooked. I have a a very long line-up of books that I so want to read. I have crafts I have begun and not finished. I have about 20 cards I want to make to thank the generous people in my life. My small galley kitchen has cabinets overfull with more items than three households need.

So today, after being encouraged by the decluttering website I moved forward with intention. I need to set realistic goals for myself so I am not depressed about all that needs to be done. I packaged up four large boxes of items for my cousin and niece. It felt good to send things off for others to enjoy.  I cleaned out the guest room closet and filled more bags of clothes to be donated.

I picked up my car from the dealer. I behaved as I knew I was being “handled” after the awful interactions with them earlier. They still will not have registered my car to me until Monday. I have to let go of my irritation about the issue because I can’t do anything about it. That is progress.   

After returning home I made myself an amazing “clean out the refrigerator” salad. It feed my need for calm as well as for good nutrition. While eating lunch I went through paperwork that was piled on my dining room table. I ripped and tore up paperwork. I felt like a human shredder.  I want my documents organized in folders. 

My evening was spent working on sewing projects, Because of our current heat wave I need to change the covers on the bed. The thin quilt I made is too heavy for this weather. My chore for the evening was to add  binding to the comforters I remade. I finished that chore and decided to work on the binding on two other quilts I made. Of course Murphy’s Law took over and the needle on my sewing machine broke before finishing the third quilt. I took it as a sign that I was supposed to stop working for the day. 

Along with the everyday tasks of living I did accomplish some big goals today. So why do I still feel overwhelmed with all that needs to be done? My head is feeling calmer about life in general, but still anxiety exists about my physical environment of chaos. 

Day 246 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude- Blog/ Challenging Day

Today had been a very difficult day. I am still trying to let it go. Buying my car should have been a joyful experience. Well actually it was. But the finance department screwing with me has not been good. It is a long involved story and the fact that I bought the car on May 25 and they have still not registered it to me is causing me great stress. I cannot sell my old car until they do so. I dropped off my car to get the luggage rack installed. I had a conversation with their customer affairs person. I was not a happy camper. After returning home she called me four times to try and placate me. I am still not driving a car registered to me. Then the sales manager called me and tried to make nice. His repeated, ” I can’t change the things that went wrong in the past . I can only work toward the future,” was not hitting the mark. His offer of three years of free maintenance was supposed to make me forget about the mess they made. There was only one thing I felt was funny about the whole situation. At the end of the conversation he mentioned that if I write a negative Yelp review I will be harming a “family” dealership. I felt like saying “You are harming me,” but I didn’t .  After the fifth call of the day from the dealership I was called and told they will not have my car this evening as promised, but I should get it tomorrow.

So I will just try and release the frustration. I will try and let go of my anger over their messing with me and my life. Five years from now (my measuring stick) this won’t matter.

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Day 245 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/A different way to meditate

I knew I needed an early start today as the weather is projected to be 105 F. So before my spouse was even out of the shower I was outside painting the caps on the numerous retaining walls in my back yard. I purchased the paint months ago and today was the day for me to complete the task. Typically when I work in the yard, at length, I tend to solve the world’s problems. At least in my head.   

I’ve learned some people meditate on a walk or jog so I figured I could meditate while I painted. I brought over an outside chair, dressed in my painting clothes, and prepared to work. Realizing as of late that I am able to meditate better with planned noise, I found a two hour YouTube meditation. It was highly effective. As I worked on my chore I had my typical brain wanderings. I was disturbed early in the process by the awful squirrels running along the fence which drove my dog crazy.  Once they had escaped to the open area beyond my fence things calmed down. I then kept trying to remember the Huck Finn reference about painting. I wondered if someone in this day and age could be fooled into doing the tedious job. I actually enjoy painting, but boy am I messy.   

It wasn’t long before I was in deep thought. This week I have been hearing ad after ad about Father’s Day. At different points in my life this holiday has brought sadness, wistfulness, and melancholy, but never joy.  I remembered the many many “father figures” that have been in my life. I was never connected to any of my stepfathers as a child except the first one. He was more a dad to me than my own father. So at the ripe old age of four when he would beat my mother, I decided I never wanted a dad again. These memories did not bring me tears this time. I just moved past them. Then I thought about stepdad number seven. While not perfect (no one is) he was the best thing that ever happened to my mom. I would not have believed that when I first learned of him. I went over to my mother’s house because it was my birthday and typically my mother would make a special dinner for me. Instead of having dinner I found a note on her kitchen table that said “Sorry I can’t be here for your birthday, I’ve gone to Vegas to get married.”  I had no idea who it was she was marrying this time. My only thought was oh well, here we go again. The first Father’s Day of their marriage I did not acknowledge his presence. I had not done so with any of the former men and did not feel compelled to do so. After a while I came to know this gentle man and to love him. As I was an adult when they married, I never felt compelled to call him Dad. But my fond memories of him were that he was good to and for my mom. For that I shall forever be grateful. I came to love him and the to love the way he accepted my children. K1 was always called pumpkin by him as a toddler. She decided to give him a name also. She named him Pickum. It wasn’t long before everyone in the immediate family called him Pickum. He is the only man I have ever made and purchased Father’s Days gifts for. These thoughts brought tears of thankfulness. My brain then went to his final days in this realm. He was always reading his Bible. I hoped it gave him peace. I wondered what his passing would do to my mom.

Then I went back to Father’s Day. I thought of my dear cousin who had an amazing Father and I feel her loss. My uncle was so kind and caring. I miss him so much. It wasn’t long until I was thinking about all the women I know who no longer have their fathers. I never had that gift of a loving dad. As much as I loved W, he was my mom’s husband, not my dad. So on this week before Father’s Day, I was still confused about my feelings. It will just be another day like any other. I don’t have a deep sense of loss. I don’t know what I feel.   

 My brain finally left the Father’s Day track and moved to thoughts of annoying critters in my yard. I check my phone and it had been two hours. I continued to paint until my phone died. Then I turned on the outside radio. Loving the music helped me continue with my chore. After three and a half hours I finished. Sadly it was not before my silly dog chased a squirrel and got white paint all over her paws.  So into the house for a clean up. The dog was not happy with her required shower. 

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Day 244 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/ Being bored will never be my problem.

As I pondered the question, “What are you going to do today?” I laughed out loud. Not only do I have tons of things I need to do, but even more things I want to do. My hope is, in this new life experience called retirement, I can manage a balance that makes me happy.

I am enjoying SWW. Because of less time constraints I have the opportunity to participate more. Yesterday was a perfect example. I met a lovely woman and whether or not we connect again, the meeting was good for me. It also reminded me to reach out to some other ladies I need to contact.  I want to do the things that make me happy.                        

Along with my obvious time involved hobbies, I am seeking to do more purging of things that are weighing me down. I am currently looking at clutter clearing as a hobby because we seek out and find time for our hobbies. The first video on the clutter clearing challenge came today and I was grateful to have the time to watch. I love that the host kept emphasizing to do what parts felt right for you. I have resisted making an alter for personal reasons, but I am going to try and see how it feels. The host was quite emphatic that it does not have to be religious, just a place to breathe in energy. 

As of yet, I have not spent hardly any time reading. I have perused a few books to help decide what I’d like to read next.   I have not started my quilting. There is fabric left over from my glorious quilt that is calling me to create something. I am ignoring the call for right now. When I cleaned out the linen closet I recovered a stack of WIP that I need to attend to. My scrapbooking room was used to happily create two scrapbooks for a dear friend of my mothers.  I have found so many free webinars on a variety of topics that I could do nothing but watch my computer all day.   

So far I have been spending my time in my garden and cleaning up the giant mess that I call home. Every summer of my career has been spent getting caught up with all the things I do not usually have time for. I typically do a big chore every summer. This summer my huge task will be to go through all the school items I deposited in my garage. I am not one for trashing useful items. I have a few ideas of summer programs that might enjoy much of my belongings.

I have many household items in need of professional repair that I have put off forever. I know I should add getting things fixed to my list of things to do. My new situation is that I have lots and lots of time and I am in no urgent rush to get things done. I can’t see myself ever sitting around with nothing to do. The best part of all this is that I get to choose the things I feel like doing at the moment. I am joyfully wrapping my head around my new reality. 

Day 243 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/Know what you want.

It was a very strange day today. From the early morning successes at purging and cleaning, to a  post on SARK, to messages throughout the day it seemed that I was being led to know what I want. I found this group somehow and as I cleaned this morning I asked myself what was necessary for me to be happy. I made the beds upstairs from the last grand kids visit. As I searched in the linen closet for sheets etc.  I realized it needed to be cleared. A short time later away went four bags of items to be delivered to Goodwill. There is actually empty space on my shelves. Without much effort I got what I wanted, one clutter free area.

Then came a post from SARK. She asked her SWW to answer three questions as a prompt for Tuesday night’s mentoring.   Respond to these 3 questions and I’ll be responding in a group way in class Tue/11. Your writing creates new vibrations and shifts~ 💅🏻 1. What I want to receive    2. Why I want to receive it     3. Describe the feeling state of receiving as though it’s already happening or happened”

I responded and I could already feel that as usual, if you feel what it is like to get what you want it is more likely to happen. 

I want to de-clutter and purge many things in my house. Finding the group working on this will help me continue my journey. I feel like I have made such success already and definitely want to continue the process. Lightening the load of “stuff” makes me happy.

I made a commitment to a retreat in the fall. I already feel I am benefiting from what will happen in the future. I know it is the right place for me. It means I will make some challenging leaps. I keep telling myself of the benefits.

I  decided to stay home today. Puttering out in the yard after cleaning upstairs felt right. My little gardens always need work. I am uplifted when I am working in  the planters, even if I am only there for a short time. As I sat in the downstairs swing my body felt relaxed and calm.  I want to have this feeling all the time. 

My lazy day today meant internet surfing, a SARK dessert Pop Up, and more sorting and cleaning. I met a wonderful woman in the pop up. We shared our stories of being in SWW, writing, and retirement. One of my personal goals is to reach out to people and make connections. It feels good when you get what you want.   

I did not get to meet up with my Sunday night peeps. They had other commitments. We will catch up later. I am so glad they are in my life. It feels right to share our lives.  I know I want their happiness as much as I want my own.           

The handyman I hired to do some outside repairs came for awhile and left again. He returned at 9:30 PM. I had already gone downstairs to read. I was so surprised at his working in the late hours of the night. I wanted my repairs done but this was a little ridiculous.         

I spent my day doing what I wanted. I accomplished a few things.  I didn’t get done with a few things I should have. There is always tomorrow. That feels like what I want to know in my heart. feed it.jpg

Day 242 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/#SoCS- Open book/Point/Write

 

Linda Hill’s stream of consciousness makes my Saturday blog different than my norm.  It means instead of focusing on what repeatedly popped in my head, I need to focus on what popped in my head from her topic. A subtle difference but one I enjoy.               

Linda has changed it up this week.  She states that this is a repeat for her and she may repeat it again as the answers are so very different each time. I have not written from this fun prompt and to be honest I was going to “cheat” a little, but I did not.

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “open book, point, write.” Pick up the closest book to you when you sit down to write your post. Close your eyes, open the book, and place your finger on the page. Whatever word or phrase your finger lands on, write about it. Enjoy!

The closest book to me is the one on top of my stack on the end table next to the couch where I write.  Proximity was her request. It led me to think about choosing another book under this one, but since this is all in fun I decided to go for it. I shall be a rule follower today. (Well at this for this assignment.) 

The book title is: LETTERS TO MY FUTURE SELF. This wonderful little book, a gift from a thoughtful friend, is designed to make you think what you would want to tell your future self. I opened the little book and landed on “A Pep Talk For The Future Me.”  I have not filled this letter yet. So here I go.

As is my usual goal I attempt to join my blog with her parameters. 

I think everybody can use a pep talk at some point in their lives. Heck, I think I could use one every day. In fact it has become my new gig to tell myself I will be OK and I can survive whatever is going on in my life. Actually that has changed a little bit. I don’t think I need to just survive. I believe I need to fly.

I would tell my future self to enjoy all the beautiful things in my life as they are there for a reason. I would tell myself you have come so far in this life and look at what marvelous changes you have made. I would tell my future self that no matter what hardships or drama was surrounding me at any time, I can choose to rise above it and be happy. I would tell my future self that I am a good person, with a big heart, and a kind soul. I would tell myself to think things through as they are sans the drama of what they seem to be. I would tell myself I am loved and in this lifetime that is very important to me. I would tell myself that my future is bright and my wings need to spread and I need to fly with joy in my heart.

Want to try your hand at the SoCS challenge? You can  Try your hand at Linda’s challenge.

For all the rules and to read how others interpreted this topic check out her site. There are so many wonderful bloggers who follow the SoCS and I try each week to visit one I haven’t read before.