SoCS – Cave – What Day Is It Anyway? – May 9

Here is today’s  Stream of Consciousness Challenge: from Linda. Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “cave.” Use it as a noun or a verb. 

I wasn’t sure what day it was when I awoke today. For some reason I thought it was Sunday, Mother’s Day. I was convinced I had to get some things ready for the day. I was sad because I know Mother’s Day will not be any sort of normal. It is still strange to not know what day it is. When I started reading blogs this morning, I was happily greeted with many SoCS posts. I always try to read someone new on Saturday especially. I again discovered some new blogs that interest me.

Back to the SoCS topic. I had a multitude of thoughts about caves. So here goes.

1. My first go to was Maggie’s blog title, From Cave Walls. If I think of caves I think of the wonderful woman who has changed my life for the better.
2. I remember being in an underground tunnel as a kid when, he who shall not be named, caved in the entrance. (Insert onset of claustrophobia.)
3. I went on an excursion into some caves as an adult. I assumed the group’s positive energy would make my fears subside. It did not. Enter a panic attack.
4. I loved teaching about caves. The wonderful videos I was able to show enthralled me which in turn made my students enjoy the topic. After all who doesn’t love learning about stalactites and stalagmites? 
5. When I learned about the caves in Naica, Chihuahua, Mexico that held the giant crystals, I knew I had to add them to my curriculum.
6. Tom Sawyer’s Island at Disneyland has/had tunnels that I was sure would lead to caves. I made sure never to enter unless I could see light within moments of entering. https://youtu.be/99JvM4uueq8 
7. I love having chocolate lava cake right after the top caves in and the gooey chocolate oozes out.
8. I am not fond of having to cave into things that I don’t respect. It doesn’t happen much anymore, but I sure do cringe when it does.
9. I understand that bears like to winter in caves for the protection. Sometimes my spirits like to hide in a metaphorical cave when I cannot deal with my circumstances.
10. I sometimes wonder if exposure therapy would benefit me to eliminate my fear of caves. Then I wonder why at this point in my life it matters that they scare me.

SoCS – January 4, 2020

Linds brings us SoCs. Check out her site to see all the rules and to view other’s entries.

 

Linda Hill’s stream of consciousness makes my Saturday blog different than my norm.              

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “ow.” Use it any way you’d like in your post. Have fun!

As is my usual goal I attempt to join my blog topic with her parameters.

I wondered how I was going to get everything I needed done yesterday. I was double booked on a few things so I made every effort to complete all my tasks.  I had my acupuncture and chiropractor appointments early in the morning. My doctor had been a no show the day before as he returned from his vacation very ill. He was a little better, but I was hoping not to catch his cold. Upon leaving I wrote down the date for my next appointment. Then I wondered if insurance starts over in the calendar year or the school year. Either way, I was grateful for leaving their office feeling much better than when I went in.

After two hours of working on my physical well being I came home to a call with my mentor to work on my spiritual well being. The notes I was taking were tear inducing.  I know this is a part of my growth. I have been working long and hard to make healthy changes. I am grateful I am beginning this year so very far ahead of where I was last January. 

After my phone conversation I debated going out to see my aunt. I wasn’t sure if she would have already had lunch so I decided to do some chores and wait to visit her another day. I traveled a long distance to my favorite bagel hang out, but sadly, they had no bagel dogs. I wondered how come they never make enough bagel dogs. I assume because they make everything fresh, they strive for no leftovers. Maybe I should have been grateful they didn’t have my favortie splurge. I am confidant the calorie count is extremely high.

While driving, my daughter called and asked if she and the Zs could spend the night Sunday. She needs me to take her for a medical procedure on Monday. Of course, I agreed to do so. I am grateful I can be of help to my family.

Moments after talking to her, Z1 called and wanted to know if he could come out and get my car transferred to his name. I am gifting him my very old car as he will be 16 in a few days. We agreed to meet at my house and then off to AAA to transfer ownership. I was surprised at how easy the whole process was. I filled out some paperwork  to complete the transaction. Because we are direct family members it was only 15 dollars for the transfer. I am grateful that I was able to do this for my grandson.  He showed his appreciation with a hug and a hearfelt, “Thank you Nana.”  

It was time for linner (lunch/dinner) after they left. I had a quick bite to eat and then had a glorious conversation with my dear friend. We caught up with each other’s lives. I am grateful for the emotional connection we share. 

There was still time to play with my dog and watch some shows on Netflix before attempting to sleep. I am grateful for a busy day with growth in many areas. 

 

 

 

 

SoCs – Year

Linds brings us SoCs. Check out her site here to see all the rules and to view other’s entries.

 

Linda Hill’s stream of consciousness makes my Saturday blog different than my norm.              

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “year.” Use it any way you’d like in your post. Have fun!

 

 

As is my usual goal I attempt to join my blog topic with her parameters.

This is the last Saturday of the year. Holy crud what a year it has been. I have lived three lives at least this year. Is it any wonder I am in a state of metamorphosis?

This year I sought out and received all the information I needed to make an informed decision about retirement. I evaluated the pros and cons of leaving my comfort zone. I debated if it was in my best interest, given the new knowledge I acquired, to leave my job. I survived all the obstacles put in front of me. I made my decision and retired from a job I loved for 35 years. I am grateful for my choice. I would have been in dire straights had I not retired when the next change happened.

 I was ready to begin a new life, with new joys and tons of free time. I am grateful for the energy I had to accomplish all that I did. I spent a couple of months finishing up many household tasks in the hopes of starting the school year with nothing but fun tasks ahead.

Two months post retirement I was in such pain I wondered why I was dealt such a horrible fate. I was diagnosed with an incurable disease that changed my life. I fought for remission by following all the advice given by multiple people. Angels from a friend helped me so much. I still struggle with pain, but it is so reduced, it is manageable most of the time. I am grateful for those who guided and helped me to not fall into a hole of depression.

With pain levels under control, I went on the first retreat of my life. It was amazing to grow and bond with wonderful women. It made me think about my future dreams. It allowed me to grow toward who I want to be. I am grateful for the guidance and friendships that grew from the experience.

I had a great deal of hair loss due to one of my new medications. The medication lowered my pain levels which made the hair loss unimportant. I decided to color my hair purple to celebrate the change of lifestyle as well as to cover the hair loss. I am grateful I finally went purple as I had dreamed of doing so for a very long time.

I sought out and found multiple “non customary” methods of pain reduction. I am grateful for friends who helped guide me on this path. I am so happy that my acupuncture and chiropractor appointments are part of my health recovery. I need to constantly remind myself that, just as when your body needs nourishment you feed it, when your body is in pain you help it.

Things physically settled down this last month of the year. Most days I can maintain my “normal” life. I am not quite sure of why, but I finally decided I am not willing to stay in a toxic situation any longer. The new year will bring changes that are long overdue. I have lived at least three lifetimes this year.

Next year will be better. As I enter the new year, the new decade, my new life, I will find peace. I will seek joy. I will grow intellectually and spiritually. It will be time for me. I will move through fear towards happiness. I am grateful for G-d helping me with the strength to take the difficult steps I need.  

SoCS – December 21 – “ingle”

 

 

Linda Hill’s stream of consciousness makes my Saturday blog different than my norm.              

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “ingle.” Find a word that contains “ingle” and use it any way you’d like in your post. Have fun!

Go here if you would like to join in.

 

As is my usual goal I attempt to join my blog topic with her parameters.

What’s it like to be single?

Does it mean you’re forced to mingle?

Are you allowed to scream when the player makes a bingle?

Can you sing real loud to your favorite jingle?

Do you have to hire someone to replace a shingle?

When you meet someone new does it make you tingle?

HMMMMMMMM

 

 

SoCS – December 14 – Loud

Linda Hill’s stream of consciousness makes my Saturday blog different than my norm.              

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “loud.” Find any word that means “loud,” and use it any way you’d like in your post. Enjoy!

Go here to see all the guidelines if you would like to join in.

 

As is my usual goal I attempt to join my blog topic with her parameters.

When I read the topic this morning my head went to loud VS quiet. My inner voice is really loud right now. It is telling me to get things done, move forward, and stop being frightened. My reality however, is that it is  my time to sit quietly with reflection. It is time for me to go inward and bunker down and put up my shields. Loud is not my friend right now.