Wednesday Wellness

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It’s all in how you look at it. Credit: https://twitter.com/ethniccanuck?lang=el

Today was filled with wellness and it is only early afternoon. The Melatonin I am taking to help sleep is doing too good a job. I am sleeping too much and still groggy when I do wake. I am grateful for the sleep. I know I can work out the dosage to best fit my needs.

Promptly at 6 this morning Annie arrived at my bed with a toy ready to go outside and play. I pet her and tried to explain that I wasn’t able to get up quite yet. She doesn’t take no for an answer well and kept dropping her toy on the edge of the bed. I laughed at her antics but went back to sleep.

She came back later and dropped another toy on the bed. This time it was her brown poop emoji toy. A six-inch pile of poop toy is alarming sometimes. I think she is trying to make me jump when she drops it on the bed. It used to be her favorite toy, but once it was washed it no longer made noise. She does go to it on occasion. She was not taking no for an answer this time.

We went outside and played for an hour. She makes me laugh when she runs after the toys. Lately she goes to her bucket of toys and gets another one to play with after I have thrown the one she returned. When the yard is filled with seven or eight of her toys she jumps on the swing and wants to be cuddled. (I wonder if she can learn to put them away as well as she can remove them from her bucket.)

After our playtime, I watered my planters. We are experiencing record breaking temperatures locally. It is supposed to be 100 degrees by tomorrow. The average high in May is 76 degrees, so this is one more anomaly to deal with. I was thrilled at the wildlife that came to my garden once I was finished watering. Two hummingbirds appeared as well as multiple butterflies and birds. Viewing nature brings me joy. I smiled watching the birds who seemed to not be stressed by my dog. She doesn’t chase the birds, which is different from my prior pups. Now when she sees a lizard, that is another story. Gratefully, they are usually faster than she is.

After watering the lower yard planters, I enjoyed the last of the morning breeze. I am grateful for my yard as a means of escaping the confines of the house. I listened to three uplifting podcasts while still outside. I am grateful that so many people are giving of their time and energy to assist the public while confined. As noon arrived, the temperature was climbing. I knew I had to retreat to my house. My body doesn’t do well in extreme heat.

After eating brunch, I listened to Melissa Ethridge’s home concert from yesterday. She is graciously performing a free live concert from her home every day at 3:00 Pacific time. Yesterday was day 51. (That number is ominous to think about.) I am grateful that every time I listen to her concerts my spirits are lifted. She tells the stories behind the songs which makes the connection even stronger. She has had up to 7K people watching live from all over the world. I know it will be quite some time before real concerts are possible again. I did order a t-shirt and CD from her site in support.

I have ME’s concert to look forward to this afternoon. I have a book to read this evening. I have a telemedical appointment also. All these things are signs that I have more involvement with a normal life. I am appreciating the sense of wellness and normalcy. I know that, this new normal will continue for quite a long time for me. I will do what I need to do to protect myself. I will continue to experience gratitude and look for joy.

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Monday Musings

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I miss blogging. I miss the thought process needed to write my blog. I miss calm rational thoughts. I miss the energy to function in any normal sense.

I blame the pandemic. I blame the family drama currently going on. I blame physical pain I have recently endured. I blame the politicians who see the elderly as dispensable.

I am frustrated with my body that has no interest in food or water. I am frustrated with my body that will not allow me to sleep. I am frustrated with my body that has been too stressed to allow me to do activities that bring me joy.

But, (yes, I know that negates everything preceding the word) I am grateful that I am aware of my current state and yearn to improve it.

I am forcing myself to eat something twice a day. I have good food prepared and ready for whatever time I can bring myself to eat something. I am trying hard to drink more water. My IC pain is increasing, and I know I need to keep it at bay. I am starting a couple of meds to help with the insomnia.

I am working with multiple practitioners to climb out of this hole. I am reading articles on ways to uplift my spirits. I am accepting that I have no control over some things that are occurring. I am looking to my higher power for clarity to accept the things I cannot change.

I am grateful for so many things. One of which is the friends and family that care about me. I don’t know where I would be without the loving thoughts graciously extended to me. My spirits are lifted when I am speaking, texting, messaging, or Zooming with loved ones. They often remind me to care about myself as I care about others. Advice I need to hear.

I knew it was Monday today because I was anxious about an appointment I had. It went well and I am grateful for that. One day at a time I want to be more at ease. I want to find joy in the activities that I waited for retirement to do.

I want to be silly with my grandkids. I want to go to thrift stores to find yard treasures. I want to take trips to the beach.

I don’t care about any of those things more than my desire to have my life to live. G-d willing I will survive this pandemic to be able to find joy. I hope to resolve the things I have control over. I need to be here in order to do so.

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Gratitude During The Pandemic

Pluto and her wise advice. Pluto advice.

Ellen and her love, caring, and humor during these difficult times. Ellen and the nurses.

Jane Goodall and her love of the earth for her entire life. Dr. Jane

Melissa Ethridge gives live concerts every day at 3:00. The highlight of my day.

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Memes that speak to me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ellen celebrates Earth Day in a silly way. celebrate.

Patrick Stewart for his daily readings.

Share Your World – March 23

 

Melanie posts four or five different questions each week to be answered.  So today I get to create a SYW post.  

Questions:

On A Scale Of 1-10, How Strict Were Your Parents? Being a single parent my mom had all the responsibility of raising three extremely different kids. Strictness depended on gender. Being the only girl, I had strict rules about doing chores. There were way to many. I knew I had to do them all. The reality is that I did them. I was not ever the victim of corporal punishment. I was given a tongue lashing one or twice. As a teen there were not really any rules enforced. Mom worked late into the night. As long as I was home before her I was OK. It is a miracle that I didn’t drink or do drugs like many of my friends. I knew I had to be responsible for myself, and I was.

What Wastes The Most Time In Your Day To Day Life? Being  retired means nothing is a “waste” of my time. I get to do what I want, when I want.

Do They Bury People With Their Braces* On?   (* “braces” in this scenario are those metal bits they put on people to straighten their teeth.   I realize “braces” are also some item of clothing that I believe men wear to keep their socks up or something.  I’m talking about the teeth option). I never thought of this. So if course I had to do some research. It seems they can be left or removed depending on the wishes of the family and if the ortho wants them back because evidently they are the property of the doc, not the patient. Having never had braces because we could not afford them, it will not be an issue for me.

Why Does A Round Pizza Come In A Square Box? Have you ever tried to stack round thing? It is easier to fold a square box, to stack square boxes, and to walk holding square boxes. IMHO

Gratitude:   Share something you are grateful for right now.  I know that’s a tough question.  It helps to share those bright bits with folks though, because many of us are seeing through an increasingly dark glass.

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I am grateful for my Zs.