Practicing Gratitude – November 12

After yesterday’s crazy parking lot adventure, I was leery of going back to the bank today. I should have gone after my early morning doctor’s appointment, but I didn’t.

I have a really great doctor. Getting in to see her is misery, but once I get in, I feel I can talk to her and discuss anything on my mind. She always greets me like she remembers me, which perhaps after 20 plus years she does. The visit was finished, and I debated what I could/should get done before going home.

I decided to skip the bank for obvious reasons. I went to Target to use the restroom before the long drive home. As soon as I went in the door, I remembered I needed to pick up Season 12 of The Big Bang Theory. I have been anxiously awaiting its release. I enjoy Big Bang Theory more than anything for the last few years.

I also bought one banana and a mattress cover for the new mattress. I am now adding bananas to my restricted diet. When I go to Target, I buy one banana to eat on the drive home. It is my alternative to grabbing a candy bar on the run.  I like the sweet treat.

I got home and talked with a couple of good friends. I have more long in-depth discussions now, than ever before. I don’t need to worry about what schoolwork I need to do. I enjoy my friends and the connections we have.

Annie needed more play time after my calls. She makes demands and I do her bidding. I am pretty sure she is the alpha being in this house. I did some laundry and waited for the time I had to leave and meet my spouse at Costco.

Costco is a challenge on a good day. I waited in a long line to get gas. At more than 4 dollars a gallon any reduction in being gouged is welcome. I made it to the front and the pump wouldn’t take my Costco card. A nice young man (boy that sounds like my mom) said my card, while current, was too outdated for the gas pumps. He used his pass and told me to go into the store and get a new card. I talked to the customer service people and they looked at my card like it was as archaic as a flip phone. I asked if they could update my card and they tried to get me to apply for a new charge card. I explained that I did not need another credit card, I just needed to be able to get gas. I guess once every three years is to long in between uses. I did walk away with a new card though.

After returning home the second time I talked to my daughter. She was planning on surprising the kids with a trip to Disneyland. They wanted to spend the night here at my house. I am only 20 minutes away from Anaheim. I am always glad to see the grandkids. I made sure the rooms were ready for them and told my spouse to not tell them what their surprise for the next morning was.

I had my SARK call this evening. Then I participated in the dessert call after. It is always good for my spirit to participate on SARK calls. Tonight, was all about reaching for your dreams. I am working on knowing what my dreams are and then pursuing them.

The grandkids have shuffled off to sleep now. They are exhausted from their once a year trip to see a Clippers game last night. Tomorrow its Disneyland for a couple of very lucky kids.

My idea of fun is to listen to an audible book, to read a book, or to watch a Netflix movie. I am grateful I am past the energy required to be young.

Day 293 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Quiet Contemplation – There is always something to be grateful for.

Yesterday ended after 1 AM this morning. It was a long day and a long night. Unfortunately, I did not get much sleep the rest of the night. I drifted in and out of slumber without getting the needed hours of REM sleep. I awoke at  2 something, 3 something, 4 something, and then 5:30. At 5:30 the dog was sure it was breakfast time, even though it was not. I finally went outside and watered my plants at 6:00. I had had a strange dream and wanted to remove myself from it. I dreamt my 94 year old aunt and I were taking care of three babies, one girl and 2 boys. We both decided to focus on the girl and were a little overwhelmed with caring for her. With my history it was not a far stretch to find some meaning to it.   

After watering out back and giving the dog fresh water I decided I needed a soak to cool off and meditate. The dog was unhappy being excluded from the room. She decided she needed to go outside and bark at the neighbors. For about thirty minutes I reflected on the earlier dream. I was not sure if the dream meant that I was nurturing the little me to the exclusion of my brothers, or if it was reminding me of the bond with my aunt, or if it was me needing care. The next thing I knew the dog was barking again and an hour and a half had passed. I had fallen asleep. I guess that is what my bodied needed most.

I came downstairs and we contemplated what if anything to do with the day. We decided on a burger at a specialty place in Fullerton. They make outstanding burgers and fries. Trust me, we are experts on burgers and fries. By going early when they just opened, we missed the crowds and the wait time. We were the first and only customers. Needless to say we had great service, Lauren hot (scalding) food, and a quiet eating experience. We believed it was “meant to be.” LOL     

Then we debated returning home or hitting  a couple of  thrift stores. Of course, the thrift stores won. My spouse found more art work for his class. It was a three piece old map of the world. At the second one I found a few little items I wanted and we were off to return home. I conversed with a couple of friends and then watched Marta Beck live. I enjoy her broadcasts and always feel like she is speaking to me about something I really need to hear.

My evening plans were cancelled and that meant I could attempt a much needed nap. Sadly, after a short time I was awakened by my phone about a neighborhood fire alert. The next town over was experiencing a tragic fire. It burned down a home and as of last count over 109 acres of land, with only 55% containment. Tragedies, even from mother nature, have a way of  making you think that your problems are not so great.

I am grateful much of my day was spent in quiet contemplation. I gave myself time to look deeply at some important issues.

I am grateful I am ever so close to finishing my summer goals. While I did not work nonstop I still finished much of what I wanted to do.

I am grateful that even though my plans were cancelled I know I will reconnect with these important people in my life. My online friends are near and dear to my heart.

I am grateful that my air conditioning is working in these heat filled days. I am grateful my body is not angry with me right now. I am a little frightened to see the electric bill next month but my health and well being are a priority at this time in my life.

I am grateful that tomorrow I shall tackle a job I have been eager to do, but have not given myself time to do. Some chores are physically draining and some emotionally draining.  I am grateful I have the ability to attack my jobs and finish them.   


Day 283 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude -Slowing Down – There is always something to be grateful for.

I am not sure what is going on now. I am in transition again. My body is so very tired and worn out. I am not sure if it is because I have been working so hard for so long or if it is the cumulative effect of full time grand-parenting teenagers. I woke up today and did some easy chores. I used the linseed oil on all the gardening tools, I watered the lower garden, I picked up a few items from the yard, I did a load of laundry, I cleaned the window sill in the kitchen, and I played with the dog. I am grateful I was able to get so many things done before anyone woke up.

Much to my surprise, Z2 awoke by 8:30 on her own. We had some errands to do but I was not in a hurry and I told her last night she could sleep in. She made herself her new favorite breakfast, yogurt, berries, and granola.   By the time my spouse woke up, we ladies were ready to go. After he had a quick bite we were off to get some things done.

I dropped off 10 small coolers to my old classroom. Another teacher said she can use them so I wanted to donate them to her classroom. The emptiness of my old room felt odd. They installed the new 96 inch TV screen, as they did to all the other classrooms on campus. It felt oddly out of place. I am grateful for the years spent in that room. I am grateful I do not have to go back to work in two weeks. 

Then it was off to the thrift store to look for some DVDs. Z2 found three she thought she would like to have. My spouse found a book on the research relating to the Bell Curve. (A hot topic on all campuses.) I still can’t find magnetic darts for my outdoor dart board. Next was a search for a lunch place we could all agree with. We don’t do Taco Hell as a general rule. Z2 does not eat burgers. We were all pizza’d out. While in West Covina I realized we were near IKEA. It seems everyone was in agreement to meatballs, mashed potatoes, and lingonberries. I am grateful we all enjoyed our lunch meal and location. 

Next was the post office. Every time I go in to a post office with arms full of packages they don’t know what to make of me. A conversation ensues and soon they are asking questions and making jokes. A fabric store was next on the list. Unfortunately they did not have the fabric I was looking for. I did find an item to add to my garden at 70% off the regular price. Z2 had the final vote on whether or not to get it. She voted yes so I bought it. A trip to the grocery store was next. By the time this errand was done I was done in. I had no energy to spare. I cancelled the last two “to do items” and came home. 

I knew I needed a real nap today. I asked Z2 if she needed one and she vehemently declined. I laughed at her response. I offered her to watch one of her new DVDs or a movie on her phone. Luckily I was able to get some much needed sleep. When I woke up we spent some time talking about her video content. It was not what she had expected and she rated it a C-.   

I had a wonderful call with Kim, as usual. I so look forward to my calls. I think I know where we will go, but usually we bird walk to another land. I am always better for our calls. I get insight and clarity and homework. Tomorrow Z2 and I will make vision boards. I shall work on my past and she will work on her future. I am grateful for the suggestion and excited for the activity.   

Then my spouse BBQ’d steaks for us. I made salads and biscuits. We had a great meal and I thought we were all stuffed. Z2 knew I had prepped artichokes and asked if she could have hers right away. I am not sure where she puts all the food she inhales. Then I remember she is a growing girl. After that she ate chocolate chip cookies. Not the most usual food combination I have seen.   

After we ate, we played Sequence. It was a cat’s game. It was really fun and she has such terrific strategies she employed. I am grateful for her quick thinking and ability to think ahead. These traits will serve her well. 

Before retiring I was able to talk with three important women in my family. I am grateful for their being in my life. I think I am going to bed. I am exhausted and I don’t feel like I got much done today. I am grateful that tomorrow I have acupuncture first thing in the morning. I always feel so much better after my needles.

Day 188 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – A good day out and about – There is always something to be grateful for.

I am grateful for the beautiful So Cal day today. It started early as usual and moved with the pace of molasses on a cool day. I attempted some meditation but crazy dog had other plans. I came upstairs and locked her out of the room I was in, but she just raced outside and attempted to wake the world up. I got some things done on the computer and some school work done. Finally four hours later I awoke my spouse and asked if he was up to some errands. I told him it was 8 AM and he agreed. The laundry was already going so he had to take a fast shower to still have hot water. That meant we got out faster. I finally made a list of years of certain series I have found at thrift stores so I don’t buy duplicates. 

Goldsteins-Bagel-LogoWe made it to Arcadia and arrived at Goldstein’s Bagel Bakery. Much to our delight they had exactly two bagel dogs left. I am grateful that we were on time to get our “fix” of this deli delight. The aroma as soon as you enter the bakery is heaven to my senses.   


From this stop we went to our favorite Pasadena book and DVD thrift store. We surveyed the options available and filled a carrier with our finds. While on our way out we spotted some artwork that struck our fancy. My spouse is always adding to his classroom pieces that speak to him. The worker informed us that the artist is a local resident who changes his pieces often and then donates them to the thrift store. We picked up two beautiful European photos for less than the price of the frames. The pieces will be enjoyed by many high school students for years to come.

We decided to visit a couple of other thrift stores and found more treasures but none as wonderful as the pieces of art. I am grateful for the time we enjoy thrifting and seeking new items to add to our collections. I am happy with a book I found for Z3 and a movies for Z2.  I struggle for things I know Z1 will enjoy but I keep looking. I did find books for both my cousins and one for my aunt in Michigan and 3 for my aunt here in So Cal. 

I am so very grateful that I also found a few trinkets to change into table settings for Passover. Two years ago I found small photo albums and filled them with pictures of each guest as place markers. This year I found small fillable snow globes. I have an idea of possibly adding plagues to them for place settings. I like making things special each year.   

The afternoon meant a nap, laundry, calls to dear friends, and organizing items to go to the post office tomorrow. My feet are killing me because I overdid the walking today. The evening meant more calls and a quick dinner.  So now I am contemplating the list of “must gottas,” really want to do, really need to do, and hope to do this week. I fear that the week off school will be more strenuous than working. I will be grateful if I get a large portion of my list done this week. 

Day 115 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Exhaustion – There is always something to be grateful for.

It has been a very fruitful day. Boy did I overdue it this weekend. I know better, but I also know there are days when my body is in a flare  and doesn’t want me to do anything. I foolishly overdue it and then suffer the consequences.

Today I woke early, cleaned out my weather unit paperwork, went on line, and as soon as the sun rose I went outside to play with the dog. She loves chasing her toys and bringing them back to me. The problem is that she wants to play tug of war and does not drop the items. So I only play as long as she will drop the toy. Then I walk away. She is learning.

Then it was do a little of this and a little of that. I did some cleaning in the kitchen, a little in the living room, and then up to the attic to look for some Valentines items I was searching for. I ended up purging items in the attic and reorganizing things. I was there for a few hours.

My spouse woke up and asked if I still wanted to go on the hunt for bagel dogs in Pasadena liked we had discussed. I said it would be a good break as long as he agreed to work outside once we returned. So off we went and were fortunate that they agreed to make us two fresh dogs. A wonderful visit to the thrift store that has only books and CDs and DVDs was our next stop. “Someone with my taste in music must have died,” was my spouses comment. As he found over twenty CDs he just had to have, not the usual three or four. I happily found a Martha Beck book and a Kushner book, along with three others that had merit. Gotta love it when we hit the jackpot.   

Home again to do more chores. I worked on trimming the pomegranate tree while my spouse mowed the front an back lawns. I then came in once I was exhausted and tried to take a nap. My body was in so much pain I was unsuccessful, so I gave in and took a couple of pain meds.

Then I looked at all the things that still had to be done. Papers to be graded, the living room to be cleaned, the kitchen counter to be cleared, not to mention the lessons to be created for school tomorrow. I decided I needed to sit down and veg because I was in physical pain. So instead I looked at blogs I follow and enjoyed the writings of friends. While waiting for a get together with some friends I finished up some tasks.   

I had a wonderful talk catching up with a friend. Her gentleness and kindness fill my heart with joy. I am ever so grateful that she is in my life.

My day still has some mandatory expectations to fulfill. I have no choice on some things, and will probably procrastinate on others. But all in all I am very grateful that my body allowed me to get some major things done today. I feel a sense of accomplishment even though I didn’t finish all I wanted to get done. Does one ever get done with everything on your list.  I must remember Martha Beck’s video blog today of letting go of being overwhelmed with all we think we must do. It was a great video. Off to finish a few more things and then hopefully off to an early sleep. I am so grateful for this blogging experience and all that it has brought to my life.