Practicing Gratitude – One Liner Wednesday – November 6

 

 

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I have already read some awesome posts today.

 

 

 

 

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Beverly Cleary has been a shero of mine for as long as I can remember. She published her first book before I was born. Happily she is still with us, at 103 years young. As I consumed her books in my youth I began dreaming of writing a children’s book of my own. A book that was not visible on the market. A book that involved a children from a less than perfect home.

When I had my children, I shared my love of the Cleary books. When I studied for my Master’s Degree, I chose Beverly Cleary and her writing about the changing lifestyles of the time as my thesis. I was teaching elementary school at the time. The way her characters’ lives changed impressed me. I appreciated that she wrote about Mom no longer staying home in an apron, making cookies. Her ability to engage a young reader has stood the test of time.

I still have the goal of writing a children’s book. I believe I have something to add to the genre.  I am watching a series of videos about writing children’s books. The book I wanted to read is not on the shelves yet.

Her 100th birthday.

 

 

Practicing Gratitude – One Liner Wednesday – October 30

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Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. by Ambrose Redmoon

This quote is meaningful to me for a variety of reasons. First and foremost, I am grateful for the first responders that contained the fire that broke out very close to my house today. Sadly, California is often plagued with fires. Our winter last year was wetter than usual which meant more growth of weeds. The weeds dried out in our uber hot summer and now the winds are spreading fires everywhere.

I have never been as close to a fire as I was today. As I watched the smoke and helicopters fill the sky from my backyard, I grew more and more anxious. I have never had to evacuate before. I knew I should be prepared but I was unsure as to what to take. My brain went to the obvious first. I needed all my meds, my spouse’s meds, dog food, and Annie’s toys. I know I am supposed to get important papers, but what exactly constitutes “important” papers. I thought of my marriage certificate, my mom’s death certificate, my tax papers, my car titles, and past that I was lost.

 I thought I should go online and try to see if there is an evacuation list. Much to my dismay our internet is down. It seems something was destroyed in the fire. The first responders and firefighters would not allow Spectrum to go into the area to fix the problem. I could have used my phone, but I was busy keeping updated on the fire situation. Our city has a Facebook site and it was being updated by the city council. Many in our city lost both TV and internet because of Spectrum’s loss.  (Thankfully my spouse knows how to use my phone as a mobile hotspot so I can use the internet.)

I was proud of myself for not freaking out about something that might happen. If we were indeed told to evacuate my immediate plan was to use my phone to video every room in my house. At least that way I could prove what was there if necessary. I am grateful that this was not necessary. I am grateful for all the people who came to the aid of my city. I am sad for all the people who are evacuated and especially for those who lost their homes.   

Then my head went to the personal struggles I have had to deal with. I know I am not finished with my fear script. I know it is still present to a degree. But I also know I am moving forward because what is on the other side of fear is more important to me.

I feel I have had to be courageous to move forward. I was living in fear for far too long. Living a happy life and enjoying my retirement is far more important than living in fear. I am grateful for the friends I have made. I am grateful for the wisdom I have integrated in my life. I am grateful for the physical and emotional growth I have made. I am grateful for the opportunities I have sought out. I am grateful for the knowledge I have gained. I am grateful for the life I am living past the overwhelming fear. I have so much to be grateful for, and courage is a major factor in all that I now have.

Practicing Gratitude – One Liner Wednesday

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I had a variety of possibilities for this and then tonight I had to change my mind.

 

 

 

 

 

SHIT HAPPENS.

So tonight my spouse did me a favor and took my car to get gas for me. He was going to drop off the bills at the post office and I asked if he could gas up my car so I didn’t have to do it before my doc appointment. After getting gas while on his way to the post office a guy in a moving truck rear ended him. He is OK thankfully. My new car has damage to the bumper and probably shouldn’t be driven. He waited almost an hour for the sheriff to come and make a report.

I am grateful I didn’t get rid of my old car yet. I don’t know how long my new one will be in the shop. 😦

DAY 359 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – One Liner Wednesday – There is always something to be grateful for.

 

The full quote is 

“You can’t always get what you want. But if you try sometimes, you just might find you get what you need.” ~ Rolling Stones

Here I am moaning and groaning about not getting the retirement I worked for. I planned, I jumped hurdles, I dug my way out of problems, and I took care of finances the best I could. I retired with the knowledge that it was the right thing to do and the right time to do it.  Then the interstitial cystitis hit and my life changed. 

I wanted to stomp my feet and say no fair.  I am got getting what I want. I wanted to scream ,”Why can’t I ever get what I want?”

What I really did was cry in fear of never being out of pain. I cried for the loss of my planned future. I cried because I didn’t and don’t understand why this, why me, why now?   

I know in my heart it is not fair for any of the 847,000 adults who were identified with IC in 1994.  To be diagnosed with illnesses that most have never heard about is frightening. To be told there is no cure is scary. To feel hopeless is devastating. 

I finally accepted that I needed to reevaluate my plans. I needed to pick myself up and do what I could to aid in my steps toward remission. So I read, I researched, and felt my feelings.

I am learning to advocate for myself with insurance companies and doctors. I am following all the diet restrictions to the T. I am seeking joy in my life every day. The alternative is to be sad every day.

I don’t understand why this is my path but I have to keep moving forward. No amount of bargaining or sadness  or anger will make this go away.  I will hold on to hope that remission is in my future . I strive to join the success stories. I am grateful that even though I didn’t get what I want, I can still have some of what I need. 

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