What Does My New Year’s Look Like

Prompted from Laura’s post here I gave a lot of thought to how my New Year’s celebrations are different from the rest of the world. As someone who chose at age four to never drink alcohol, New Year’s is not a time for me to drink. I did attend a few parties in my younger years, but never participated in drinking.

My typical plans when my children were young were to stay up until midnight and allow them to bundle up, go out into the back yard, and bang on pots with wooden spoons. They were so excited to be allowed to stay up late. Back then there were not as many crazies as there are now. A few fireworks could be heard as well as some loud Happy New Year’s cheers. Now there are so many explosions, the poor dogs are all in fear for their lives. My dog is not a fan of this holiday activity.

When my daughters were teens, I stayed up worrying about their safety and sanity. It was not an easy time for an overprotective mom. I wanted them home, safe and sound. I knew they were at risk of the rest of the world who drove while under the influence.

When they moved out on their own I hoped I wouldn’t worry about them. Worrying is part of my DNA. I always felt better when/if I knew they were in their homes.

In my second marriage we once had a lovely tradition of spending time together on blankets watching movies until the ball fell and then celebrated with apple cider. As I live on the west coast, I never needed to be up late.

Now I watch the ball fall in my time, which is three hours earlier than New York, and I try to get some sleep before the ruckus I know will wake me. I am not much of a sleeper so any time I successfully doze off is a win for me. 

I do not have a tree to take down, as I celebrate Hanukkah. I do usually put away my Hanukkah decorations before the New Year. This year I was too unhappy to decorate. I lit my candles each night, as that makes me happy and connected to my traditions.

I do not make resolutions. They are a waste of time. I do try to daily give myself pep talks to be happy, to find joy, and to do good.

Any day that I learn something new is a good day.

Any day that I do a mitzva is a good day.

Any day that I rid myself of unneeded items or unneeded feelings is a good day.

Any day that I do a joyful activity is a good day.

Any day that I feel loved from family or friends is a good day.

Any day that I send love off to the universe is a good day.

So, I do not need the New Year holiday to do new things. Every day is an opportunity to do things that are good for me. I am grateful that I am the odd woman out. I am grateful for every new day. I know that 2020 will begin with difficult experiences. But I have faith that the difficult times will lead to a joyful future life.

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Day 99 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Friday Celebration – There is always something to be grateful for.

Today was a day of  hard work. I am grateful that I know how to function with little sleep. I am in charge of decorating for the social committee birthdays at school. Because I always arrive so early I am happy to do the set up. The theme for January birthdays was the New Year of course. Another staff member made confetti birthday names and had some students cut out giant squares representing confetti. I brought in happy birthday wine glasses I bought from the 99 cent store and filled them with M&Ms. I displayed all the food that was brought in a nice celebratory fashion. I find joy in making the celebration festive. As I was finishing I realized I never removed the Happy Hanukkah Banner from the ceiling. Oh well, I wasn’t about to climb on the counter with it full of food. 

I was “on” almost all day. We are working on severe weather and the students have many good questions. It brings me joy when I see the “light bulb” go off for someone. I ended each period with a movie clip on severe weather that I knew the kids would enjoy. While they watched I graded the papers for the day. I am grateful I did not have to bring home any grading this weekend. I will be designing some new lessons on tornadoes and hurricanes this weekend. It actually brings me joy when I make new lessons. I am kind of crazy that way.   

Because I am trying to take healthy care of myself I did some laundry and then took a nap. Well, it was a little nap but I am grateful for any sleep right now. I awoke and made myself a small dinner. I caught up with some posts of people I care about. It brings me joy that I have special people in my life. I care about their well being and happiness.

Today is the sabbath. We light candles and remember that we are transitioning from work to a time of rest. Sadly I don’t always light sabbath candles. When I do it makes me joyful. So it is a practice I want to participate in more.

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I did some reading then had my wonderful call with Kim. We are working on a book I have never read before. I am enjoying my assignments and taking this path with her. Her calls bring me joy because I know I am working toward a more fulfilling, happy future.

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So I am embracing the joy I feel for my friends, my loved ones, my stack of books, my working washing machine, my 195 degree hot chocolate, and my new glasses I should be getting any day so my eyes don’t get so tired.  

Day 89 – LSS Attitude of Gratitude – Blog/2019 Thoughts – There is always something to be grateful for.

Today I am grateful that I had time with the grandkids. I hope they know how much they mean to me. Today is a day of hopeful beginnings and plans.

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So today is the day of contemplation of what I want, what I need, and what I can do about those.  I want to be healthier. That is more realistic than any weight loss plans, or exercise plans, or sacrificing plans.   

 

I am grateful that I have already done so much purging this year. I want to continue to do so this year, both in my classroom and my home. 

I am grateful for the possibilities of this year to bring me joy and happiness. I am claiming my right to joy and happiness. I am going to pursue happiness and joy this year. I want to focus on the good things and progress and movement forward.