SoCS – April 23, 2022

Linda is our host for SoCS. She provides the prompt, and off the top of our head we write to it. You pretty much can’t go wrong. So here I go, off to see what my brain is thinking about tonight.

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “too/to/two.” Use one, use ’em all, bonus points if you use all three. Extra bonus points if you start your post with one. Enjoy!

Too many things are on my mind lately. You know it’s bad when two different people tell you to take time for yourself.  I know I need to try to let go of my overly concerned feelings about other people’s problems. It’s especially hard when those people are loved ones. My protective self says, “Not my monkeys, not my circus.” I think I should stay focused on what I have control over. My empathic self says, “They are hurting or making an unhealthy decision.” I might be able to offer some advice, or I might just worry excessively about them.

I am still doing a good job of being grateful for what I have that is working in my life. Acupuncture was life saving yesterday. One severe pain was reduced to a 2 from an 8 on the pain scale. My back is doing better, but never out of pain. I was able to do some dishes yesterday evening. I was unable to pull any weeds though.

I had aqua therapy yesterday too. Because I had done my medical appointment in the morning, I was able to really work hard in the pool. I was grateful that I left the pool, completely exhausted with reduced pain levels. One of my workout strategies is to do my counting of repetitions with blessings of people I care about. I am supposed to do the exercises slowly with controlled movements. When I repeat to myself, I hope that (person A) has happiness, love, and blessings in their life and then repeat this nine more times, it keeps me focused.  

This morning, I was grateful for a good conversation with a friend. I needed help addressing a mini crisis I was dealing with. Not only was she a wonderful sounding board, but she offered advice I could immediately put to use. The universe has my back so many times, I feel blessed. I need to work on not allowing my body to be compromised with the overflowing emotions I take on from those I love. It is easier to turn off the television, avoid the sad news, and retreat from the world’s problems, than it is to not take on concerns of those I care about.

My desire is to replace the bad energy surrounding me with good energy. I need to spend more time working on my scrapbooks, which gives me joy. I need to get an audio book on my iPad so I can relax and enjoy some great fiction. I need to not take on the worries about things I have no control over. I need to continue to send out my good wishes to the universe.