Haibun Wednesday – Mornings

Morning after morning I awake with having had little sleep. I’ve been an insomniac most of my life.  In my younger years, I could still function well on three to four hours of sleep..  

I’ve often wondered if it was because I was afraid of what my waking hours might hold. Or was it because my nightmares might be worse. Mornings meant a time of relief from what my subconscious mind was doing with the fragments of truth and fiction twirling around in my head.

I still wake early every morning and have trouble sleeping every night. Before I get out of bed each morning, I do a check for physical pain levels. The level determines what, if anything, I will be able to do. Next comes my emotional check in. It’s no surprise that my levels are elevated with the horrific events in the world. When I add strained relationships and family loss to an already overworked empathic heart it’s no wonder I still don’t sleep.

It’s time for self care
Spring means opportunities
For new beginnings

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