Haibun Monday 9-27-21: Writer’s Block

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Frank is today’s host of dVerse’ Haibun Monday. Frank says:
Feeling a little blocked? Vent about it! Have a story to tell about a recent writer’s block? Go for it? Never had writer’s block? Tell us your secret! However you approach it, write your haibun that alludes to this perennial frustration of writers.

I don’t know that I think of myself as a writer. At least not in the way I see others as writers. While it’s true that I write every day, I don’t know if that that makes me a writer. My writer’s block doesn’t seem to appear because I have nothing to say. It roars its ugly head when I am too depressed to write.

Depressions brings doubt. Depression makes me feel like I am not good enough. I feel like the words I write fall short of even my limited abilities. The gauge is set for self-confidence.  I hesitate to document my ineptness.  The pandemic has triggered more days of depression than I care to admit. Emotional pain and physical pain can send me down the rabbit hole.

Writing brings me joy. Jotting words on the computer feels like I am exercising my brain. Being part of the blogging community offers a chance to learn about individuals from all over the world. Reading poetry blogs is a little piece of heaven for me. I delight in the words others write.

Because I am writing blogs for myself, I know I need to continue my practice. I must stop worrying about whether my jottings are good enough for anyone else. They are valuable to me.

Write notes every day
The seasons change while I watch
Wait for the right time

31 thoughts on “Haibun Monday 9-27-21: Writer’s Block

  1. You cover a lot of important territory around writing, the motivations and benefits. I’m sorry you feel your writing doesn’t measure up to some expectation of what writing is.

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  2. Beautiful haiku Lauren. You’re right that you should write everyday regardless of how you view your writing. Be seen so often that something that I wrote and thought wasn’t good enough, brought lot of appreciative comments.

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  3. ‘I must stop worrying about whether my jottings are good enough for anyone else. They are valuable to me.’ – exactly that! I struggled with depression for many years, and I didn’t write during that period. I never really made the connection, but I probably didn’t believe I was good enough…

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  4. Wruter;s block overcomes me when the challenge format is a page and a half long and the retrictions are such that creativity is stifled!.

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  5. I write for myself but with the hope my memories will be entertaining and a historical glimpse of a world that my following generations will never experience. I do know that a day without writing brings me into a funk.

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  6. Lauren, this piece rings incredibly true. Also –

    I know I need to continue my practice. I must stop worrying about whether my jottings are good enough…

    I have to say that whenever I read your work, this is the sense that you leave me with – that you’re just writing honestly about yourself, without concern for what others may think.


    David

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