This week’s roller coaster of emotions has been driving me mad. I am grateful for all the good experiences of the week. I am working through the bad experiences. I am devastated by the sad experiences.
I am grateful for the good things this week:
It finally rained this week. We are living through another drought. Last night it rained hard. I was overjoyed with the sound of real rain and not just a few drizzles.
I had a telemedical appointment which went well.
I had an acupuncture/chiropractic appointment which was terrific.
I did not feel the need to light my candles for hope the entire week.
I got my first vaccination shot to fight Covid. The wait time (beginning to end) was just over an hour in total.
I am writing along with the prompts on a deep level writing course.
I have been making new meals that bring me joy.
I have been trying to cope with the bad things that have me driving me away from my gratitudes:
My car has been dropping my connection with my phone. I will be using the phone for directions and in the middle of my drive the navigation drops. This scares me as I am directionally challenged.
Twice, when I started my car, the entire dash did not light up. I could drive, but I had no indicators anywhere. That scares me.
I just had to purchase four new tires and that was a big hit to my budget. I fear what this is going to cost.
My acid reflux is back with a vengeance. I am pretty sure I am having too much tomato sauce.
I started redoing a big project on my front yard and it is much more intensive than I thought. My body gives out before my mind wants to quit each day.
The colder weather is kicking my butt. My RA has my hands looking like claws each morning.
Yesterday, I received some incredibly sad news. I was devastated. My dear aunt who resides in a senior assisted living establishment was confirmed to have COVID. They have called in hospice for her. She is on oxygen. There are four residents and three staff members diagnosed with Covid this time. My heart aches with the reality that I will not see her again. When we spoke last week she was feeling ill and our conversation was shorter than usual.
My dear cousin asked if I could help by making a few calls for her. We spoke after the calls and shared our grief.
My go to, for dealing with sadness is to use up energy or to eat chocolate. I made dark chocolate brownies after my phone calls. I needed them. They are my aunt’s favorite dessert that I make. I sent her some for Hanukkah this year and she was so happy. I only ate three, but I wanted to eat the whole pan.
My aunt is the last of her generation on my paternal side. The depth of my sadness is palpable.
My hope is that if it is G-d’s time to have her transition, that she does so without pain and without fear.
Oh, Lauren, I am heartbroken with this news. You, your aunt, and your entire family are in my prayers. These are such difficult times and there seems to be no end to the sorrow that Covid can bring. Take good care of yourself and remember I am just a phone call away.
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It is comforting knowing that you are there. Thank you.
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Always.
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I love the fact you started this post with positive things. There is always some good to balance out the bad. So sorry about your aunt’s illness. I hope she recovers soon. Hugs.
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A lot of positivity at the beginning of your post, but I am so sorry about your Aunt, Lauren. Devastating news indeed. But you have spoken with her recently, so that must be a comfort.
Suggestion for your reflux if you can try it……….. do you like fresh ginger? Hubby chews a tiny piece and it helps him.
Take care and keep safe.
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I have not tried that. Thanks for the recommendation. At 95 my aunt is already so compromised. I am hoping to call today if she is able to talk. Her nurse is letting my cousin know if/when that will be possible.
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I hope you can talk to your aunt today Lauren.
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Her hospice nurse said she is not up to even having the phone put to her ear. I hope she rallies to allow another conversation. If not, I know that last week when we talked I told her how much I love her and how important she is to me.
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I am so sorry you can’t talk to her, but hopefully the hospice nurse will pass your good wishes on.
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I hope so.
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I’m so sorry Lauren, breaks my heart. C
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At 95 there is not much to do for her.
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I’m sorry about your bad and sad news, but at least you did have something positive to tell us about too, so it wasn’t ALL bad/sad.
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My week was more up than down until yesterday afternoon.
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You are in my prayers Lauren I hope you and your family will see a sea change soon. Sending love 💜💜
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Thank you Willow. My heart is aching.
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I will pray extra then and hope it helps you 💜💜
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Thank you.
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💜💜
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I am so sorry to hear about your aunt, Lauren. I’m sending all good energy and thoughts to you and your family.
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Thank yo Lisa. We are praying for an easy transition.
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Lauren, I, too, am very sorry to hear the news about your Aunt’s Covid. I pray that she does not suffer. May you and your family find peace.
Glad you have been able to have those positives and the rain surely was a blessing. We have finally gotten some, along with some snow. Long overdue for sure.
I am praying for your Aunt and you and your family.
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Thank you Nancy. She has hospice care and they are wonderful. She can sometimes answer with a yes or no. She is not currently in any pain except her throat when she tries to swallow. We all hope her transition is pain free and fear free.
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Hospice is a blessing. They will keep her totally comfortable.
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They will.
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