This morning’s meditation started taking me down a path I wasn’t prepared to travel. I, of course, tried to travel in the direction I wanted to go. I kept retracing my steps to a place I wasn’t comfortable going. I chose to get up and begin my day outside. Yesterday I had a comforting meditation about dealing with childhood issues with bio-dad. His actions do not deserve forgiveness. I am learning to let go of my anger for that is what is hurting me.
I spent the morning cleaning outside before Z3 got up. He was anxious to get in some time playing board games before his dad picked him up. I fed him breakfast, finished his laundry, and packed up his things to go home. We were playing sequence when his mom texted and said we only had 10 minutes. He was sad to be leaving but happy to be able to see his brother. I was sad to end my summer grand-kid time. I was honestly very tired, but it was well worth it. I am grateful for the Nana/Z time.
My spouse left for the day and I was alone in a quiet house. I tried to get some sleep but that never happened. I then started working on my huge pile of paperwork that needed dealing with. I made a small dent in the pile and then it was an afternoon/evening making contact with friends and family.
I am grateful for my communicating with my cousin, my aunt, my friend, my coach, my daughter, my other aunt, and another friend. The women in my life give me strength and hope and love. I am forever grateful for all of them.