Advice to self : Do not try to meditate when you are angry. Instead of getting right with your inner self you review a list of wrongdoings and get even angrier. I was unsuccessful in trying to calm my mind. I went over and over why things were making me unhappy. Then came the realization that I was and am angry because of my own expectations not being met. So I have two choices. I can not let myself be angry because I have no control over others’ behaviors. I can be angry and sad and just allow those feelings to be where I am right now.
At least I accomplished a ton of work by myself outside. I am grateful that I can immerse myself in chores to keep my mind off of other less pleasant things. The saying I hate but it fits today: It is what it is.
At least my evening was happy. I am grateful to still be binging my Netflix series.