Sometimes we all need a little inspiration. Today I know there are many things to be grateful for but I needed a little inspiration for my day. I looked at sites I like and while I am grateful for the things others had to say, I was not inspired. I was underwhelmed because I am in a melancholy mood. I am feeling sad and a little lost. I have a plan. I am working on my plan. Yet I am feeling betrayed by life right now. I know it is temporary. I know I shall come out the other side. I know there is joy hiding underneath the gloomy murky emotional state I am in. I know I am capable of taking care of myself and I shall. I am feeling my feelings today.
I spent a lot of time sleeping with intermittent cleaning spurts. A nap followed by cleaning again. I had a late dinner and went outside to work on my society garlic beds. They have gone crazy in all the rain we have had. It felt good to work outside, by myself, getting dirty while weeding and transplanting. My succulents have gone crazy and got so large I need to find new homes for most of them. I stayed outside and worked until past dark until my body ached. It felt good to get something done. A hot shower, a warm drink, a cough drop, and few minutes on the computer before going off to bed. I am grateful I know this feeling will pass, but for now I am muddling through sadness.